Left sided?Right sided? Guitar and Flute

Sometime during med school I started taking flute classes..picked it
up quite quick too....but as years went by I realized that my deviated
nasal septum kinda made one side of of my nasal vestibule go dry after
a longer flute blowing session.
Also,as years went by I realized that the FLUTE is not really a good
ACCOMPANIMENT INSTRUMENT especially if one would want to both sing and
play an instrument at the same time during a performance.That is when
I decided to start learning the guitar.
Actually, the intense inspiration to start learning guitar came from
me wanting to make a "response YOUTUBE video" to one of my favorite
songs by an artist called Goh Nakamura...I realized that the video
would be better if I had some kind of music playing in the
background.what better than a simple strum of an acoustic guitar.
Given the procrastinator that I am, I DIDN'T END UP making that
response video yet...BUT , i did end up buying a guitar and then also
self learn it to some extent..
Anyways coming back to the TOPIC on the header of this blog...as I
watched Justin beiber's "NEVER SAY NEVER" movie which I got to see
recently( I know,,it takes me that long to get around to watching
stuff)..i realized that justin is left handed and hence his guitar is
a left handed guitar.This got me thinking."mmmmm.given the way the
strings are arranged in a guitar..yes we do need to change the
arrangement if the person were left handed...but then given the way
the flute is...there is no need for a special LEFT HANDED FLUTE , Is
there?"
WAIT A MIN...Prolly there..let me go dig out both my guitar and flute
or RATHER try to mentally image me playing them if I were left
handed....hmmmmm
gotta come back and blog about this again at a later time.
TEN MINUTES LATER..
yeah..given the guitar's construction,,it does need modifications if
the person were left handed...and possibly a right handed flute can
just be played in a different way and still work for a left handed
person.

The pensive playlist

Like I usually say on the Poetry and poise blogs,
Playlists and the music we choose to play at a given point of time reflect our mood at that particular time.

Dec 20- 2 ft of snow in the Northeast

Lots of thoughts in my head.Some puppy dog eyes haunt me in my mind..some bitterness in the heart prod me to walk away and then I need a playlist..
This is what i played

Playlist now>Santana(product G&B) Maria>Chris Daughtry-Home>Its not over>Coldplay-The hardest part>Daniel bedingfield-Gonna get through this 3:23 AM Dec 20th from web

Listening to>Coldplay-If you love me>Daniel powter-Bad day>Darren Hayes-Insatiable>Rihanna-Disturbia>Sean Hayes-Dream machine>Duffy-Mercy:)) 3:39 AM Dec 20th from web

The song DREAM MACHINE has a very hypnotic feel to it.It is like U R laying on the dance floor slowly writhing in a trance like rattlesnakes 3:54 AM Dec 20th from web

Playing now>Duffy-Warwicke avenue>Eminem-8 mile-Lose yourself>Enrique Iglesias-RythmDivine>Robbie williams-Feel>Fergie-Big girls don't cry:) 4:09 AM Dec 20th from web

Playing now>Fergie-Fergilicious>Pink-Funhouse>George Harrison-Sweet Lord>Green day-Boulevard of Broken dreams>GunsNRoses-sweet child of mine 4:40 AM Dec 20th from web

 puppy dog eyes, pouty mouth,typing away frantically into keyboard,while multitasking-cooking spaghetti casserole.More puppy dog eyes!!! 9:19 AM Dec 20th from web

The playlist of TENDER INTENSITY

 This blog entry was written first on Nov 22nd..and it has been just over a month.And usually add postscripts to older blog entries if something connected to the subject matter of that blog entry warrants updating of the blog entry.I usually add such updates the end of the original blog entry and call it a post script.But this time I figured I might add a prescript to this blog entry.
Prescript is dated Dec 24th 2009


The prescript is a POST-INTENSITY PLAYLIST


The actual  nature of the "Intensity" by itself becomes questionable when you realize that everything on the other side is very ambiguous, secretive and in wraps, where they don't let out the real feelings out in words anymore.. So, all there was, was this 10 hour conversation..Nothing real ever happened after that..It never will; coz , I am like a square peg and they are like a jagged edged hole. and i will never fit in that hole..
Anyways.. again, playlists reflect moods and the present POST INTENSITY PLAYLIST plays only one song and it is a song called 
WHO IS SORRY NOW? by Connie francis


Who is sorry? hmmmmm...very complicated questions..Maybe , another blog entry on my antidote to anger blog will serve its own purpose better.Not here,, not just yet..



 THIS WAS THE ORIGINAL BLOG ENTRY WRITTEN ON NOV 22,2009(READ ON)
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Recently i had a long conversation(read 10 hours) with someone. 
Today, a couple of hours ago, I was still recapturing the conversation in my head and as i did that, I selected some songs from my music and put together a playlist.
Playlists are like MOOD METERS.The type of songs you choose at particular points of time to listen to; reflect the mood at that time.


I am just making a record of this playlist--because, I observed that the set of songs I chose were highly representative of my thoughts connected to this person..Indirectly or directly !


Here are the songs


1/Dave Brubeck-Blue Rondo A la Turk


2/OSD-Free diver-Movie-Song-Brutally brutally in love with your children(the line from this song that intensely captures my soul each time i listen to it is>> I am brutally brutally in love with your children, even though, You won't let me have them) awwwww


3/Darren Hayes-Insatiable>>> In my opinion Darren completely  CAPTURES with his angelic voice  the intense emotion of love making


4/Amy Winehouse--Do me good >>lyrics.. Do me good and so this craziness will disappear, Do me good and I will tell you anything you want to hear ! (When she sings do me..she is only asking him to be good to her..not like do her or something..just to put a halt to minds on overdrive)




5/Sean Hayes feat DJ Mark Farina--Dream Machine --This song is hypnotic..Totally,,reminds me of long lonely drives in hot vast deserts ..all sweaty, lonesome.. and yet hypnotically magically 




6/About dreaming with a broken heart-JM-This song will gnaw from inside of your soul after it soaks in first.


7/Eric Clapton -Wonderful tonight--I would say,, a simple kind of love.where she dresses for a  party and duh! simple compliments and simple love..nothing complicated..hmmmmm..


8/George Harrison-Sweet Lord--I know this is like one of those church choruses.. where you get lost in the song for the repetitive trance like state--But yet..worth listening once in a while




9/Goh Nakamura-Highway flowers--Goh is my dear friend..Lyricist par excellence..The lyrics are just too much..any of his songs are just good enough for any time for me..Heya Goh..good job!


10/Again Goh nakamura-Daylight savings-Immense lyrics, immense voice..




11/Goh-Embarcadero blues--again..another anytime song for me..I listen to his songs almost everyday..so there ya go..nothing specific for this playlist or any such


12/Scissor sisters-I don't feel like dancing 


13/The killers-Are we human or are we dancers


14/Carling New kings--Love is just a game, broken all the same --Very interesting, catchy, slow, gets to me 


15/Uni and her Ukelele-Mahalo maui rose-truly,,her songs are always catchy.some of the lesser known artists but very good nevertheless.


16/Maroon 5-She will be loved--each time i listen to this song, I start remembering the music video..I think it is very twisted -very typical of all Maroon 5 videos..hmmmm


17/MIA-Sunshowers-I like the video to this song..all those kids on branches of mango trees..Interesting and a very unique sound 


18/Midnight cowboy-Everybody is talking at me, i don't hear a word they are saying, Only the echoes of my mind-
This song..totally melancholic and gets me and kinda makes me cry for some reason ..the song in the context of the movie plot also makes it even more sad for me


19/Nelly furtado-Turn off the lights--Very interesting sound this song has got..catchy , rappy and yet dreamy at the same time


20/Pearl jam-The fixer -You should see them in concert..they are like the idea of sexy ..and powerful  vocals .There is  something of that older-man-sexy  about them...powerful vocals.. me likes(wink wink)


21/Chad Blondel-Pretty eyes--This guy is an Australian artist-Found him from myspace.This song is slow, chiding and I like it very much .. This song kinda reflects my present situation --totally 


22/Savage garden -Truly,Madly,Deeply -Again, Darren hayes, his voice-ultimately oozing of sexual energy laced with tenderness.. and this song was one of the songs I used to play on the jukebox each day at the cafe while in med school.


23/Jamiroquai-Seven days in sunny june-This song will take me back to summer in my mind.it is like sliding on ice and yet it is summer--The song slides into your ears, I say! Totally ! My absolute favorite.


24/Shakira feat Alexandro -La Tortura--Totally reflects the mood..damn..the cooing tones of the voices..totally charged with sexuality 


25/Carling New kings-She won't love me like you --This song is interesting in its lyrics and somehow takes me back to 2006 -the summery afternoons


26/Maroon 5-Sunday morning--Duh,,if it is sunday morning, what song is better than SUNDAY MORNING, RAIN IS FALLING..each time i listen, i feel rain is falling...totally rocks!


27/Shania Twain-That don't impress me much-The lyrics make me giggle for some reason..sweet...I often think of this song when guys find silly way to try to impress me..


28/OST-The Departed-Movie-The guitar solo right when the rat walks on the railing-Maaaan,,this is truly some melodic guitar shredding!


29/The fugees-Killing me softly-Again, one of the very first songs I downloaded onto my laptop when i bought it years ago-very dreamy, very flowy, very groovy...smoothhhhh! Apt for this occasion and state of mind


30/The script-Break even-Apt lyrics-Coz I got time and she got freedom,coz, when a heart breaks, it don't break even!


31/OST-Top gun-Movie-Take my Breath Away ! Again, need I explain?Lyrics, baby!


32/Venessa Paradis-Be my baby--Again, this lady is the Baby mama of kids of that guy from that pirate movie-johnny depp?


33/Maroon 5-Wake up call -Again, any song by Maroon 5 will work for any Intense mood...any sexy mood ..any damn mood, I say!


34/Connie Francis-Who is sorry now---Golden Oldies--very interesting lyrics.......


35/Maroon 5- Woman  Again,,what can I say..Adam levine==sexual voice. Totally suits this mood!


36/TOUCH AND GO - Would you?\
 Lyrics > I find you very attractive,Noticed you around..Would you? Ummmm..would you go to bed with me?
Now 36 is one song.. that will totally turn me on and i will go into one of those jolly(wink wink) moods..NO, totally! This song will get to me and will start to make me grin..totally! VERY SEXY

Michael jackson died 3 days ago

Monday, June 29, 2009

First off, he dies at the age of 50, in this day and age of modern medicine, good cardiac drugs, great interventions available to prolong life and what not. There was no dearth of money.Though there was some news of bankruptcy I am sure he had enough to pay for good medications.
Second off, his children are only 12,11 and seven.The children whom he shielded from the media glare and public.They are orphaned now.Just doesn't feel right.I am sure the relatives will go in for a custody battle for the money they might get for being a guardian.I hope Michael wrote a sensible will , so that the children don't become the golden geese .
Thirdly , he got acquitted of the child molestation charges only recently and he was planning a come back tour-which got sold out already. I was hoping this was going to be his redemption.That redemption never happened.
About child molestation charges , All i know is, he got acquitted.I have no access to the trial transcripts, so i cannot comment on this issue except that he was acquitted by a court of law .
Most news about famous entertainers are always laced with many lies, out of sheer jealousy and out of sheer desperation on part of the gossip magazine hounds who have no source of income unless they take pictures of entertainers .The gossip magazines are able to sell because there is no dearth of common people who want to gossip about an entertainer and sometimes derive cheap pleasure when something bad or weird is happening to someone famous and rich.You stop buying trash magazines and these trash magazines will be out of business.But , oh no, you are so nosy and are seeking such an escape from the mess that is your own life, you seek gossip news .You like outrageous news and sometimes these gossip magazines spin that gossip for you , at the cost of distress to another human being.
If someone sings well, you pay them to sing for you.end of issue.If you feel they are getting too rich disproportionate to their talent, stop buying their music.end of matter. no need to encourage gossip magazines to hound them and make their life a living hell with no privacy and then derive some sick pleasure by knowing that though they have money they have no peace. People, you are the ones paying for them.If you don't want them to be rich, don't pay so much for their music.Stop buying their music.end of matter.
Anyways, that whole lecture was because, i think, the media and the media stories were responsible for Michael's death in a way. He has been performing since very young , first as the star of the jackson five and then solo. He has been in the media glare all these years. The gossip, the rumors take a toll on a person. They start drinking and taking drugs to escape the drama. and one day , at the age of 50 they die too soon.
Michael Jackson's music and musical style and voice and message through music were all about equality, human rights, love and childhood and good things.Those ideas and thoughts were all his own.His music managed to reach third world countries.His records spanned over decades.I grew up with his songs.
His pelvic thrust and genitalia grabbing may not be my favorite moves in dance, but his moon walk sure is one of my favorite moves.
My favorite song of his is, 'THEY DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT US' and the video to that is My favorite music video ever. the brazilian drums, the crowd, michael dancing in all abandon amongst the crowd. I love that video..have you seen him dancing ? Now, that is natural talent. he dances from his soul.he also sang from his soul.. It was all real. That sincerity was what was able to touch people across countries.
Have you seen this other music video for his song CHILDHOOD? well, my favorite line form that song is
BEFORE YOU JUDGE ME, TRY HARD TO LOVE ME.
Each time i hear that line, I break into a sob these past few days.Michael is gone.Death is such a final decider , isn't it?
One other song that i like very much is, BLACK OR WHITE. The music video just like always, amazing. One face morphing into another face all through the song, black morphs into a white face, then into brown, then into yellow. Beautiful
One other favorite song of his which is my favorite is , MAN IN THE MIRROR. It is a very long song, but when you pay attention to the lyrics, you can understand why that song is my favorite. The essense of the song is, CHANGE STARTS AT HOME, IT STARTS WITH THE PERSON YOU SEE IN THE MIRROR.
I have no idea what the issue has been with his father, but making a very young child, perform night after night like it is the kid's job is atrocious, in my opinion. well, Michael never had a childhood . I hear that there was talk of how Michael's father abused him and yet, It makes me want to puke to hear his father talk to reporters outside of his home today, when the reporter asks him," I hear that you have been particularly close to michael these past few years" and the father says, " He is my son, I fed him, Ofcourse I am close him "
I am thinking in my head, "there is absolutely no necessity that every person that feeds another person automatically gets close to that person. A person is not a dog , ya know.Not that i am trying to demean a dog here by saying that all that dogs need is to be fed "
Anyways, what happened between him and his father , only both of them know. So, I am not going to speculate on this issue where Michael was possibly abused by his father.
Spookily, Michael's untimely death is being compared to Elvis's death which was also too early and also suspected to be a drug related heart attack.
Speaking of which, the indignity of an autopsy.
I am a physician and I know what happens during an autopsy.It is sad to die and then be subjected to an autopsy just coz you are so famous that it becomes mandatory to rule out foul play.
Also speaking of which, I heard the 911 call that was made to call for help being played over and over on TV , over and over again. Gosh, ridiculous.Me as a physician, with all due respect to GOOD paramedics have to still say that I am very skeptical about the medical skills of paramedics.Most of them do more harm than good during the few minutes from home to hospital. They just know some basics and do those procedures very blindly without taking into consideration many other possibilities that a doctor could possibly think of during that time of crisis.Yet, they somehow think they are good enough to manage an emergency on their own .Anyways, that is a whole other blog entry for my Ecology and Health blog.I digress.Yes, blame is a big part of dealing with death of near and dear.So, prolly, I am trying to blame the paramedics as a way to deal with Michael's death.Maybe the paramedics did their job.Speaking of which, Michael's relatives want a second autopsy.Dude , none of you relatives were close enough to have been near him during his death.Now, everyone is crowding around him like they care.Again, I am an outsider, so i must not comment.Who knows what happens inside families.
BTW, I also think it is very insensitive to play the autopsy report on TV.Seriously, why talk about his balding head, knee surgeries and what not.Why? The man is dead. leave him alone.This is cheapness to try and explore his body to see what surgeries he got done. I mean, what the fock! People are like vultures, aren't they?
Also, looks like a lot of people are discussing on various forums, about his skin which turned into super white over the years, how his nose got very very short and well his child molestation accusations.
If any of you remember ,well, there was a fire accident many many years ago,while he was performing on stage and he had to receive a skin transplant .After that is what started the white skin. Did they transplant a white person's skin onto him? I have no idea , coz, from what i can see, his whole body is white.A whole body skin transplant? His nose, sure, he got surgery done, but didn't that happen after the burn incident too? I have seen patients lose noses during burn accidents. So ,sure, nose could have been lost in that fire accident.I don't have the exact chronology of incidents, coz ya know, i was busy doing important things back then.
Medically, vitiligo doesn't classically appear that way his skin is/was these days. So, well, not vitiligo or is it? Medicine is vast, clinical variations are vast, can't comment at all.
About child molestations, there was this cancer patient kid, who was talking about how people are willing to treat an animal of another species aka a dog as their own family and yet are not able to treat a person of another race equally. A profound sentence indeed.And given Michael's song content in BLACK OR WHITE, I am sure , the young boy's words impressed him very much. No harm in inviting the children over to his home..
My only question is, what the fock were the parents doing? were they so starstruck that they forgot all chaperoning rules and left their young children to have a sleep over with an adult stranger? what the fockers? I want the parents to be tried in a court of law for utter negligence too.. and yet these parents shamelessly file a case and then get silent after getting some money. I mean, if really you cared only about your child, why go silent, why not fight it till the end? It was not about the child at all, was it now?Yet again, what happened between michael and those children, only they know. I am just a third party. I have no idea.
So yeah, I love Elvis's music. The best voice ever. The most beautiful face I have ever seen.He died before i was born, yet, Elvis's music is top on my playlist always. He died early.Had he lived, he prolly would have been 70 something, but come on, it would have been fun for me to go visit him in person. But no, he died. He left behind a child. The spooky part is, his only child was in a relationship with Michael jackson for a bit.They call it a fake relationship and well, gossip magazines will say anything,so , take it with a pinch of salt. hmmmm.. some karmic connection there. I don't believe in the concept of karma though. Anyways, Michael, the best musical talent ever. The content of his work, top quality. He died .. He just died too early. None of us were mentally prepared to deal with the sudden death.We were so ready to deal with him getting bankrupt and obscure and old, but not dead.
It is irritating to see the whole bunch of idiot entertainers come out and go ga ga over him now..I mean a few months ago, Vh1 was afraid to play his songs on their channel anymore, now they are blaring his music and paying homage. and all entertainers who wanted to play it safe and would say 'no comment' these past few years, suddenly come out and babble like frogs.After all , the man is dead, we can all safely babble now, that is what they think perhaps.
Only few entertainers had the courage to say they liked his music even when he was alive and caught up in all that controversy and only those people have the right to open their mouth and pay homage now.The rest of you, please shut up and move on.

Lady GaGa-Poker face-Music and MusicVideo review

photo courtesy www.ladygaga.com(official Lady gaga website)
Photo used for non profit educational fair usage purposes only


Looks like I have not really reviewed much on here since I first started this blog.
Today I am reviewing Lady GaGa's song POKER FACE and the associated video.
When i first caught a glimpse of this video on TV, I quickly flipped the channel coz ofcourse if a girl in swimwear comes out of the water and there is a dog beside her , It has got to be one of those Ho video dances( I don't use this term but this is what the Rappers seem to address these women as ) .
As a smart enterprising pretty woman I find it degrading that women are potrayed as powerless lardy butts shaking around while a few other mindless men sit there just plainly watching them like moronic kings and belting out pointless lyrics where they say how they are going to do all these Hos this way or that way. Seriously, Why are there not enough music videos that show women like they are .Where is the respect to a fellow human being? I am a woman and I am smart and I would find it very degrading to even watch these HO music videos. I want no part of this exploitation of women.No , sexuality is one thing but 'Ho videos' are another thing.

Anyways, So , the first time that i came across this music video I flipped the channel . The next time that I heard the song I was in the kitchen while the TV was blaring in the living room. So i just let it play out and was surprised that the tune was very unique and catchy.
Soon, I caught up with the tune so much that I would wait and watch the video each time It would come on tv.
Btw, The video of Lady Gaga -'poker face' is quite the opposite of the powerless-sex-toy-ho potrayal of women. Here in this video, our dear Lady Gaga is powerfully sexual. It is sexual alright but there is a strong dignity and power to it . Her demeanour is very confident.
Now, looks like Lady Gaga used to be a song writer for Britney and Pussycatdolls till of course Akon gave her a break. Truly, Akon did us all a favor. Coz of course, she truly is talented.
This song , I actually just went and checked out the lyrics too because I am already too enamored by the tune and the video and what not. The lyrics are not quite bad either. That seals the deal for me. She gets my seal of approval.
The lyrics btw are about how this girl keeps up a poker face to get a guy and then of course she is gonna take advantage or some such.

The thing is, I think she sets the melody herself too. Which is great. I have no respect for singers who make others write songs for them and then others set tunes too and all they do is kinda lip sync amidst synthesizers.
Lady gaga is different, she sings, she writes and she composes too .
You must listen to 'Poker face' to understand what I mean. It is unique, and original in so many ways. Yeah, there is a point in the song where she goes into fergie mode and sings like fergie , but then there are other places in the song where she is just herself. Speaking of the video, looks like, the guy who was to shoot the video initially complained that she might be too fat for the swimsuit or some such. Well, when you look at the video you kinda are baffled at how she can effectively bring back fat thighs into fashion. Btw, the choreography kinda reminded me of Pussy cat dolls and their doll domination moves. Whoever directed the pussy cat dolls to do the "roll the shoulder while stomping the foot " move has also made, lady Gaga do the same move. This particular step kinda works it up with the raw sexuality. I am a heterosexual woman and yet , If this move can work me up this way , Imagine how much more the heterosexual guys must have gotten worked up by these raw moves? Thankfully for me, there was a pretty boy in underwear somewhere in the video. If at all people have to be stripped, let both genders be stripped equally. LOL


so, yeah, Poker face is fun to hear and fun to sing along and dance to . The video is sexual but not cheaply so. watch it and tell me what you think.
Lady gaga is anyways gonna go far if she keeps us with this talent of hers.Cheers

BeeGees and Christmas trees

Hmmmm.The beegees, their music, the distinctly semi feminine voices.
All i want to say is that their music sure has touched me.
I clearly remember a couple of sentences from one of of their songs
"When we were small and christmas trees were tall" and the song proceeds to "Now we are tall and christmas trees are small"
Just as i type these lyrics, I start humming those songs and it transports me to my first year at medschool.Used to listen to Beegees and Elvis a lot back then.Hmmmm.

Kenny G and Magic !

Kenny G and magic ! I was first introduced to Kenny G's magic more than a decade ago (15yrs ago?Not sure ) when i watched the grammy's award night ,way back then. Those were some days..when i was just starting to be a teenager.I went an purchased some Kenny G audio cassettes with the money i saved from my Gas money..Hmmm....Kenny G has this magical soothing effect on me..where within minutes of starting to listening to the sax... i slowly go into the semi hypnotic mode and then after sometime , all i am doing is closing my eyes , and letting out satisfactory semigroans(no obscenity or sexual connotations intended at all) .The Saxaphone by itself has a calming effect i suppose, but kenny somehow adds the depths to those already calming tones.Years went by after that , and over those years, i moved on to Elvis, and REM and George Michael( i know i know..I moved to artists in a retrospective manner- but, hey, I am born much later than these artists, I still have the right to go back and discover their music and love them, don't I?), I move on to savage garden and a many other singers, songwriters and composers and As of now, IN 2008, MY LAPTOP still has kenny somewhere on its music collection but i never get myself around to actually listening to him anymore.Just three days ago ,that changed, Finally ! I went back and looked at all my music archives, dished out the kenny G and clicked on PLAY, and within two minutes I was back in that semi nirvana state where i am going all "OH , wow, OH my god ,this is so great ! "