I understand now

I understand now how it is possible for a 40 year old man to just cheat on his wife like that.
I understand how it is possible for a 29 year old woman to be with that forty year old cheating husband.
I understand how a 30 year old man can fall for the 40 year old deserted wife.
I understand how two friends can love the same girl
I understand how the girl can love both the men
I understand how what starts as pity sex turns into passionate out of control affair
I now understand your lines where you say, You gave up your beliefs to be with her
I now understand how you just had to do it despite you knowing it won't work
I now understand why i questioned it so much and yet I myself am doing the very same thing.
I am angry that i am doing the exact same thing i was angry you were doing
I understand how out of control and conflicted you were back then to do what you did , the exact same thing, that i am now doing after having objected and warned you at that time.
We are all fallible,,koby says that..he is right
I understand how we are all puppets at the fate of cruel trysts ..trysts we put out fingers in like babies do in fire.
They burn, they singe, but do they learn.Maybe not.
I understand how once we are wired a certain way, we do it over and over and over till one day we die.
I understand how no amount of psychotherapy and family support changes that.
We learn those kickass lessons and yet will forget those lessons again at the nick of time
We hate ourselves for selling ourselves short.
We hate ourselves when the people dearer to us sell themselves short, yet we do the same
Why can't we be together?
oh no.we just have to go find those broken people, get broken ourselves and then run into each other's arms during those window periods..
Where we quickly gasp for all the air we can ever get,
warm ourselves in each other's embrace,
yet we go out again, seeking more broken people,
Why can't we just be with each other?
it is not like we didnt' find each other.
but no,,we need those broken people,
to let ourselves know how unbroken we are in comparison
yes, that is it..we want to feel like the better ones
I understand it all..