Christmas music-Happiness and stress

Written by Dr.A.R aka Le Cinq BlogCopyright 2008 Le Cinq Blog aka Dr.A.R All rights reserved.
First off, I am not a christian.I am agnostic.That point aside,i really really love holiday music and i like the holiday season too.

The songs just lift me up to happiness for some reason.I love love love the fruit cake...I seriously do .I like the colors and the lights too..I don't quite like the bickering over gifts and the stress people go through to buy gifts that others won't hold them against at a later point of time.I hardly give gifts to other people at this time.Thinking of which, I think that when i start my own practice(which i really hope i do ), i might have to give some gifts to all of my assistants at the clinic...I am not sure what i can give them without sounding too pal like and yet not appear too careless...I am gonna give them a large fruit cake each...Ideal, non committal gift and maybe a good bonus to go with the fruit cake with seal the deal.

Btw, coming back to christmas music,I think i like it primarily because it coincides with the newyear and during my childhood, this time around, the 'mom and pop' grocery stores would put out extra shelves full of paper stars and tons and tons of greeting cards--I used to love browsing all the cards and admiring the pictures..I would have to say that i had an eye for good photography back then too.Meanwhile, my mom suddenly also decided that i would be her personal shopper as far as greeting cards are concerned..She has almost more than half a dozen siblings and most of them were married and spread out in different cities...so, that meant,i had to go shop for 7 families,their own personalized flowered greeting cards(that was what my mother wanted to be on all the greeting cards) and then she also kinda made me her personal secretary too...perhaps she thought i wrote better verses...Yeah,,,i was all of 11 yrs old and i shopped for greeting cards and colored scented envelopes and then i used to write them out and then wrote the addresses too and then stick the stamps and then post them too...I used to enjoy that job back then coz that gave me an official reason to browse and browse at each of those shops -which btw were around 7-8 of them all on one street one after another (wonder how they all made business) and i used to hop on and hop off at each store and then finally decide what to buy and then go for another round of hopping on and hopping off and this time around i would buy them.

I digress so much, If i ever wrote a Novel, it would be far too long ..seriously !

so yeah, that is perhaps why the music associated with that time of the year really imprinted in my head as happy music..I did that shopping for cards and such for four straight years till finally, I don't remember what happened but i stopped doing that.

Also, we used to have this devout christian teacher at school, who used to make special efforts to stage a theatrical presentation each Christmas..My sister was invariably in that theater presentation and also in the choir that accompanied the theatrical presentation( i never auditioned , and on retrospect i seriously wish i had auditioned for the choir if not for the theatrical presentation) ..so yeah..this theatrical presentation would then be followed by distribution of trinket gifts to everyone..that perhaps added to the happy association factor too
Meanwhile, weeks prior to the actual presentation, each evening, my sister would come home and practice the songs and i learned them just by overhearing her practice..so well..that is perhaps why i associate happiness with that time of the year and that music..
So, all these years since the age of 11 till 28...christmas music meant sudden happiness no matter what circumstances i am actually surrounded by at that time..but last christmas..i went through immense stress..absolute immense stress which i could have avoided had i been more focused and more careful and well..i spent the whole of pre and post christmas under immense stress and now all that happy association with holiday music has disappeared into thin air..Nothing is left of it ...see, how there is overlay of memories? and now , each time i play holiday music, my stomach starts to churn..and it is all stress now..awwww.what a loss !
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