Popping out child after child just to KEEP a husband from leaving

It all started over false pretences..Casually asking HIM if he wants
to come along to some CASUAL PARTY ..and that becomes one occasion
both of you are seen together...
Casually, constantly tagging along to casual lunches and dinners,
CONSTANTLY, till everyone and anyone has seen you together..
then casually introducing him to your parents..and pretending it is a
CASUAL MEETING...
easing him in "OH SO CASUALLY"
Finally, you both get tagged as BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND... HE WANTS
TO BREAK UP..
After the break up, being TOO EAGER to take him back...
I mean,There was this CASUAL DISCUSSION OF WANTING TO GET MARRIED...
And then ,
MAKING YOUR PARENTS PAY FOR THE WEDDING..
And then
HIM WANTING TO BREAK OFF THE ENGAGEMENT
, Then
Using your blog to exert INDIRECT PRESSURE....
using the fact that YOUR PARENTS HAVE ALREADY WASTED/SPENT the money
on the ARRANGMENTS..
Then ,
CASUALLY easing him in , into a marriage..
And then,
ACCIDENTALLY getting pregnant right during the HONEY MOON TRIP..when
both of you were DOCTORS and surely were in no position to PLAN A
FAMILY, given both of you were only starting residency...
YOU JUST HAD TO MAKE SURE HE won't break up or leave you that easily
again, right?
surely, BOTH OF YOU MED GRADS, knew of contraception..WHAT THE FUCK,
do you mean,the pregnacy was an accident?
I don't think it was an accident..I think it was YOUR INSECURE
DESPERATE PLOY, to keep a trophy husband,,who has tried far too many
times to leave you, the TAGGER ALONG.
Now, while you constantly mention how you could have done better had
you not had children,
sometimes , it escapes your mouth, that the only little time you have
with each other is spent , planning what to do with the kids..
THE KIDS ARE THE GLUE..the kids...that you are popping out in
succession JUST TO PROVE TO YOUR MOM that your trophy husband indeed
does love you,, why else would he impregnate you three times
already...WHAT THE FUCK..
Given the fact that the first child was such an accident, why the hell
would you then have another kid? and then another? LIKE A BABY POPPING
MACHINE..
You barely have time to take care of your first child..The ANCHOR
child that you had, just so that you make it that much more difficult
for him to leave you the next time around HE WANTS TO LEAVE YOU...
You then realize that he may not love you but he sure does love the
children...So, why not pop child after child, so that you can FEEL
SECURE IN AN ACCIDENTAL MARRIAGE that almost never happened.
You think, let me use my body as my instrument to pop up another child
that I WILL DO A FUCK JOB OF PARENTING AT ,yet, I want that child, as
a ransom trap from the father of the children
I watch and think, WHAT AN INSECURE DESPERATE WOMAN..SHE PREACHES
FEMINISM and yet, at home, she is this desperate insecure woman vying
for the attention and love of a man, whom she tricked into a marriage
and now wants to keep for ever...
Trust me, by the time your kids grow up and you can no longer pop more
children, SUDDENLY , you will be sitting in a room with a VERY
DISCONNECTED MAN..who is very resentful about the whole thing. and you
will be filled with more self loathing more insecurity, while you
costantly take digs of disapproval at your PRETTY daughter , who
strangely reminds you of your PRETTY MOTHER, who always never left an
opportunity to remind you how ugly you are and how she always wanted a
boy and not a girl.
Tags:insecurity,dysfuntional_marriages,manipulation,parenting,bad_parenting,anchor_babies,desperation