our sex

I have had you on my mind for so long now, I WANT TO CONSUMMATE this
thing we have in a sexual manner.
I want to have sex with you atleast once before you get REALLY OLD ..
I want to have sex with you atleast once, while you are still the man
I once shared a 14 hour conversation with
while you can have sex the way a young man would be able to .
I want to have sex in a place that IS NOT A HOTEL..hotels are fully of
too thin walls, and housekeeping staff that check on the room each
day..NOT ENOUGH PRIVACY AND hotels are too personal and cheap.
I want to have sex in a place THAT IS NOT MY REGULAR APARTMENT...COZ i
don't memories of my apartment coloring by you and your memories and
our sex..I WANT TO SEPERATE those memories...afterall, YOU and I..ARE
not meant to be together forever.....but we ought to be together
once...atleast once
I WON'T mind having sex with you in your apartment,,but since you
hurriedly married someone you don't even love like you love me,,IT
WOULD VIOLATE MY SELF RESPECT if we try having sex there in that
apartment..your apartment,,where in each room you once sat and thought
how it would look if we had sex there..each single room where you
already envisioned US,YOU AND ME having sex...yet,NOW,us having sex
there in your apartment is ruled out...
so,where are we left with?
I want to have sex at a time and place, where I DON'T NEED TO WORRY
about one of us needing to leave the place within hours of having
sex...
I want to not bother about needing to wake up early the next day and
vacate the place either..
I want to share a homecooked meal with you prior to and after having
sex...i WANT TO CUDDLE with you after sex..I want to go off to sleep
without a care after the sex...
So,,maye this OUR SEX is never going to happen...unless, you divorce
her, stay single for a bit after that and meanwhile, if i don't find
anyone , maybe a year after your divorce,if you have managed to NOT
SLEEP WITH ANYONE ELSE or hook up with someone else and I haven't
either,,mabye MAYBE,,we can try and get together? make love, ( i
started crying just as I typed this out-says a lot ,no?), stay
together for a few months, in an apartment which we both can co-sign
and co pay and then pretend to be a couple for a few months, and while
I go to work and do my 80 hours job and you work and do your job, we
will still come back to OUR HOME and then have sex...A MARRIAGE LESS
SEX with no future..YET IT WOULD BE our sex..A SEX without guilt or
worry..IT WOULD BE OUR SEX....I don't want A "FOREVER" WITH YOU..coz
we don't gel that way...but, I want an episode of 'OUR SEX" to
remember you by
And i want you to be able to give up everything you have now , to be
able to be with me WITHOUT PUTTING A LOT OF PRESSURE ON MY SHOULDERS
TO MARRY YOU OR BE WITH YOU FOREVER...if you have the courage to give
up everything WITHOUT AN ASSURANCE THAT I AM a DONE DEAL...without an
assurance that I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU FOREVER...then I AM READY TO
have OUR SEX..i WANT IT..
But i don't want to be pressured into marrying someone out of guilt
that i made him break up his marriage to be able to have sex with
me...
I want a normal dating .I don't want to be pressured into anything coz
you are looking to settle down coz you are old enough to settle down..
I am ten years younger than you are..I AM ALLOWED TO EXPLORE without
that pressure on me to settle down just coz I am getting older..i
should not be needing to compensate for your insecurities,your
limitations or your past mistakes.
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