Impulse control:Exercise:Analysis,self blame

Actually ,
Memory can be defective, unless we have a record of the sequence of events , the timeline and chronology of thoughts, conversations,events and such.
Who said what and when and in response to what is very important in determining , who is at fault, if at all anyone is at fault at all.
Everybody starts finding fault only when something doesn't work out.-Be it at the workplace, or friendship or family or love etc etc
When things work out ,everyone runs to take credit for whatever happened.
Anyways, it is good we are in a digital age..Everything is recording for posterity,for most part, except ofcourse the feelings and the heart flutters and the stomach churnings and the Arrythmias.unless, both of you or all parties involved have taken the time to journal about these as well
I did some reading up and ya know what..it wasn't onesided  at all..It was as much me at fault in inciting this on some level..though my inciting for in a healthy direction.. their inciting was to drag this whole thing and give it an unhealthy turn

hmmm..Atleast now that i know that i was equally inciting this, I feel less targeted and manipulated..ya know.. I don't feel like that hapless person who was targeted schematically.
That is is a consolation..but having said that.. again, this makes me want to run back and forget about the Time out
But again, i have felt exactly the same want of interaction even without the time out..So actually i wasn't getting what i wanted even when there was no time out..So why not really have a Time out and try to see what really happens on a real time.
But having said that.. withholding certain vital details till someone put a gun to your head and asks a very specific question is almost akin to deliberately lying and getting away with it.
I incited a conversation which revealed details that would have never come out otherwise voluntarily from their side..So ya know what, they either never took this serisously enough at all to feel the need to tell the truth or deliberately didn't want to tell the details so that they can get more interactions..but is that not MISREPRESENTATION?
it is..so, THEY ARE TO BLAME
infact, thinking of it..good that i am reading the whole thing chronologically now , like a story.. coz , I don't think I would have incited anything had that info been given to me much earlier
So i was inciting without knowledge of a particular situation and they were inciting back with full knowledge of that piece of info..
SO I AM NOT AT FAULT AT ALL. that is exactly why i feel wronged.
So, no self blame required at all.
So, maybe A PERMANENT TIME OUT IS IN ORDER..
Coz this thing started on lies from their side..withholding truth is a lie too.