okay, okay, there is something here.
There is intensity.it is inexplainable coz this connection defies all my rules of what makes me connect to a person
I have a certain set of characteristics that i know that if a person possess i will be happy to interact with them or be happy with them
This person doesn't have any of them..so yet i am attracted to them and want to interact and talk to them
I accept that.
BUT
like my rule, I NOT HAPPY..
I am addicted in some way..but IT IS NOT A HAPPY ONE ..but yet, it is intense.. very sexual(undeniably-though no sex yet--but sexual tension is immense.. )
but I AM VERY VERY UNHAPPY, i LOSE MY CONCENTRATION..I LOSE MY ROUTINE..BUT YET IT IS INTENSE
what is important is.. i need TIME OUT coz each time I interact or connect, i get unhappy and unproductive after.
this never happens when i interact with people who have the set of characteristics that i consciously know i like and am happy with.
So, well, I don't know what this is..maybe just some mental disorder of mine.where i want to still self torture or maybe i percieve they want me so much and thus use these conversations as an EGO BOOST mechanism
sometimes i suspect he is doing that too.. like he knows i am veyr talented and very pretty and very nice and he just is using this as an ego boosting technique to tell himself that he is worth -as a pacification mechanism for a midlife crisis..hmmmmmm
So if both of us are ego boosting and not actually happy..We do need a TIME OUT.. a permanent one.
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